To meet me in person today you’d probably think I’m just a normal chatty, happy and enthusiastic woman with 3 beautiful children and a gorgeous husband. I have a career I’m in love with and a family I’m immensely proud of. A working Mum juggling life, work and studies and moving through the world with a bit of a spring in my step and usually humming a tune wherever I go, despite existing challenges.
But that’s not my whole story, that’s my cover story. The beginning of the happily ever after the heartache and drama.
I, like so many of you, have faced so many challenges that at the time felt insurmountable.
I endured the crushing heartbreak of my parents divorce just as I started formative schooling and not being accepted by my new extended family to a degree that caused excruciating rejection and self worth issues because I didn’t feel like I belonged anywhere and had nowhere safe to go.
I was a lonely single parent suffocating from feelings of fear, failure and resentment of not being able to pay the bills or keep meals and clothes coming for a child who never stopped growing. To have my child diagnosed with ADHD, speech and integration issues at the tender age of 3 and support him through it all, whilst feeling completely empty and burnt out myself.
To be in relationships where I was simply not appreciated or valued and to know that I had allowed myself to be treated that way and the shame that it created within me.
To hide my shame, anger and fear behind eating disorders, binge eating, panic attacks and depression.
I’m naturally curious and thank heavens for that! I knew there had to be more. There had to be a way to bounce back, to find joy and keep it.
I was on the lookout for solutions and the universe did not disappoint!
I discovered teachers, modalities, books, trainers and trainings that helped me reframe my past experience and use it as a springboard. I immersed myself in any self building therapy I could, learning in the process that all that fear and anxiety was the communication of the soul to shake me and wake me up to MORE – it was a red flag to show me that I wasn’t in a good practice, the same way puffing up a set of stairs was a good sign I needed to get more active and build up my fitness and strength!
Today I am grateful for all of those experiences and the path they sent me on to self discovery. There is no greater gift than finding that deep seated inner spark of joy and peace. To know that we BELONG in this beautiful universe so full of promise and opportunity.
Today I take all my knowledge and experience and offer it to those in need so that they too can have MORE energy, health, self belief, resilience and connection to the vastness and power of their own creative spirit.
To make it just that much more wonderful, I like to share all this joy and freedom, in a natural woodland setting full of growth, beauty and harmony of nature.
I believe we all owe it to ourselves and future generations to heal the hurt within and RISE!
We deserve to be HAPPY and HEALTHY!
